Brad Stulberg

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So actual clinical OCD is defined by an intrusive thought or feeling that constantly bombards you.

So in my case, that intrusive thought was I might harm myself.

or I might be like this forever.

And then the feeling that accompanies that thought is 10 out of 10 anxiety, despair.

So it's this web of like a really shitty feeling with a really shitty thought.

And then with OCD, the compulsion is trying to make it go away.

So for some people that compulsion is counting to 10, or if I just wash my hands, then I'll never get sick and I won't die.

My compulsion was very internal.

So what I did is I tried to problem solve my way out of it.

So I'd go Google depression and suicidal ideation and try to convince myself that I wasn't actually going to do it.

And what that does is it gives you relief maybe for a minute, but then the OCD brain says, well, what if you're wrong?

What if you actually are going to do it?

Followed by bad depression, bad anxiety accompanying those, and you get into this cycle.

So the themes of OCD too, they're really bizarre, but they're really common.

And I think it's important just in case listeners might be going through this and are ashamed to get help.

So I thought like,

This is nuts.

This is just happening to me.

There's no one else that's constantly worried about this or constantly questioning the meaning of life.

But sure enough, it's like one of the big 10 themes of OCD is existential OCD, which is just that.

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