Brandon Lake

Dude, that's like exactly what happened. He's praying over me. And all of a sudden it's like something broke. I broke. And I finally surrendered. And my wife, she looks over at me and she's like, babe, what's going on? Because I'm listening to that prayer. And she didn't know. And I just broke. And dude, she held me. I was like fetal position. And she just held me.

Dude, that's like exactly what happened. He's praying over me. And all of a sudden it's like something broke. I broke. And I finally surrendered. And my wife, she looks over at me and she's like, babe, what's going on? Because I'm listening to that prayer. And she didn't know. And I just broke. And dude, she held me. I was like fetal position. And she just held me.

Dude, that's like exactly what happened. He's praying over me. And all of a sudden it's like something broke. I broke. And I finally surrendered. And my wife, she looks over at me and she's like, babe, what's going on? Because I'm listening to that prayer. And she didn't know. And I just broke. And dude, she held me. I was like fetal position. And she just held me.

And I just finally really reached out to the Lord instead of trying to fight it myself.

And I just finally really reached out to the Lord instead of trying to fight it myself.

And I just finally really reached out to the Lord instead of trying to fight it myself.

Because I kept... I think the enemy loved it. I was like, I can get over this. I'm tougher than this. I can fix this. And even a professional Christian like me didn't go to the Lord first. He was like, in that moment, I used him as a last resort instead of my first response. And luckily, it was the power of the Holy Spirit, but also the power of real community that kind of broke that.

Because I kept... I think the enemy loved it. I was like, I can get over this. I'm tougher than this. I can fix this. And even a professional Christian like me didn't go to the Lord first. He was like, in that moment, I used him as a last resort instead of my first response. And luckily, it was the power of the Holy Spirit, but also the power of real community that kind of broke that.

Because I kept... I think the enemy loved it. I was like, I can get over this. I'm tougher than this. I can fix this. And even a professional Christian like me didn't go to the Lord first. He was like, in that moment, I used him as a last resort instead of my first response. And luckily, it was the power of the Holy Spirit, but also the power of real community that kind of broke that.

But then that began my journey of... figuring out what are the tools that I need to combat what's going to happen again when I come off of another mountaintop experience. How do I level out? And so that's been a journey, which I can share some things, but I've had to learn how to redefine success, redefine who I... That God...

But then that began my journey of... figuring out what are the tools that I need to combat what's going to happen again when I come off of another mountaintop experience. How do I level out? And so that's been a journey, which I can share some things, but I've had to learn how to redefine success, redefine who I... That God...

But then that began my journey of... figuring out what are the tools that I need to combat what's going to happen again when I come off of another mountaintop experience. How do I level out? And so that's been a journey, which I can share some things, but I've had to learn how to redefine success, redefine who I... That God...

God loves me not for the things that I'm doing for him, but just like loves me for who I am.

God loves me not for the things that I'm doing for him, but just like loves me for who I am.

God loves me not for the things that I'm doing for him, but just like loves me for who I am.

And I had to, to stop chasing all of these, like these highs, these, these dreams coming true to make me feel fulfilled. And, and I realized one day I even ran to my wife for that fulfillment. And cause it was, it was like months of learning.

And I had to, to stop chasing all of these, like these highs, these, these dreams coming true to make me feel fulfilled. And, and I realized one day I even ran to my wife for that fulfillment. And cause it was, it was like months of learning.

And I had to, to stop chasing all of these, like these highs, these, these dreams coming true to make me feel fulfilled. And, and I realized one day I even ran to my wife for that fulfillment. And cause it was, it was like months of learning.

How do I, how do I, um, how do I honestly like fix this? And I was going to my wife. I became extremely needy. I needed sex every single day to feel. And she was like, at one point she was like, babe, I cannot fill what you are trying to fill.

How do I, how do I, um, how do I honestly like fix this? And I was going to my wife. I became extremely needy. I needed sex every single day to feel. And she was like, at one point she was like, babe, I cannot fill what you are trying to fill.