Brenda Dennehy

And maybe this person or...

I don't know if they haven't specifically asked them, have they gone to Al-Anon or anything like that?

I know they're in a new relationship, but Al-Anon is brilliant because, I mean, there must be something there for the families who just don't understand what's going on.

But when I read the ego part, I suppose I just, you know, addiction, ego can and often do coexist.

What do you think of that part?

I feel my ego got in the way for my downfall of my second rock bottom my ego got the better of me I think yeah not that I wasn't grateful yeah to be sober but I think my ego something along the ego just crept out too much like I think when it comes to an ego and being I don't know someone to recover I just feel personally I have to be very very careful yeah

I don't know, just something stood out.

I just think it's probably my own story.

No, no, that's really interesting.

Well, I suppose, you know, for me, and I've often said this, and people are probably likely sick of hearing about my story, but I feel that I always had this feeling if I didn't have the big bravado, Brenda having the crack, Gas Woman crack, which, like...

80% of the time I'm always high energy and genuinely in good form but I suppose my big thing for me was that led me to kind of going back drinking taking the Xanax all this was I always had this fear if I wasn't great crack why would anyone want to be my friend or you know I always thought people just liked me for the cracked Brenda and I would like if I was down or sad I wouldn't want anyone to find out because I was afraid they wouldn't want to be friends with me yeah so I suppose the ego then was like oh no they love that part of me but they won't want to be friends with the

And I was like, but like, why would they want me to come over?

Because they're going to be flat and they're going to be like, we don't like her anymore.

I suppose it's the fear of not being liked, which we all have.

The fear of not being liked.

But truth be told, what I figured out was when I actually am probably quiet or I might confide in someone, I think they kind of sometimes prefer that Brenda.

And to be honest with you, when I meet my friends and if they confide in me, I don't think there's any bigger compliment if a friend confides in you.

I think it's the most flattering thing ever that someone can open up to me, you know, rather than, you know, as I would be roaring around the office having the crack, you know, or we'll say one of the girls here, she's very lively.

But if she pulled me into the kitchen and was like, look, I really need to talk to you.

I'm having a bad day.