Brendan Allen

But what's helped me is I had a sports psychiatrist for a while.

He was great.

And I learned a lot with him.

And for me, it's been about, like, I'm very, like, open with people that I care about and that I know care solely about me.

They're not worried about if I win or lose or, you know, all that stuff, the fame.

They're not worried about that.

They care about me as a person.

And that was something that was great with Bilal and Horacio and all the guys in Chicago, Mike, Max.

We talk regularly.

How are you, man?

How's the family?

Everything good?

But I'm very open with them leading up to the fight.

There's a clip from behind the scenes of the last fight where I'm open and they catch it.

It's just me being vulnerable of who I am.

I was too manly or whatever or trying to suppress it before where it just grew into something bigger and I would mentally shut down.

Malcoon was the worst fight for me for that.

I was shaking in the bed the night before like I was freezing but I wasn't.

I was so nervous of like I can't lose to this guy.

He's not on my level and then I go out there and perform not that well.