Bridge North East

Yeah.

I did an exercise once.

It might've been through Ben Crow's course.

I'm not a hundred percent sure when we had him on the podcast and it asked you to write part of your life story from this place of your like biggest supporter and then also from your inner critic.

And it was so brutal writing the same story and seeing them side by side.

It brought me to tears pretty quickly reading how harsh I was to myself.

And I think I'm a pretty positive person most of the time, but it was really awful.

Yes.

Yeah.

Could that be like exposing yourself to the thing that you were being really harsh about yourself on?

I feel like I've had a version of this, but it hasn't come quite from that type of therapy.

I talked about this example in a previous episode.

It was the What's Your ATAR episode.

I spoke about my experience of year 12 drama, but I've had a lot of very harsh inner critic feelings around being in performative spaces, like doing what I'm doing right now.

And I was looking, I think through my sessions with my psychologist, I realised that

I sort of told her a bunch of stories.

She gave me this wonderful metaphor of a necklace and each of the stories being like a bead on the necklace that I'd been kind of going, oh, yeah, there's another bead of evidence that I'm not good enough here.

There's another one.

There's another one.

And there were these pivotal moments through my life where I'd constructed a story of like you're not good in performative spaces.