Brittany De La Mora

And it was really like that, that affirmation that kind of pulled me in.

And then from dancing, I had the opportunity to get into the porn industry.

Yeah, 100%.

I dealt with a lot of emotional and verbal abuse almost on a daily basis, which left me feeling really rejected.

And I feel like my entire life I was searching for validation and acceptance.

And unfortunately, I had found that in the adult industry for some time.

But I realized that the amount of validation, I mean, I had hundreds of thousands of followers, people praising me on a daily basis, and it just was never enough.

It left me feeling more empty.

Exactly.

Interesting.

Money couldn't fill the void and the amount of affirmation.

I always thought like the reason why I got into the porn industry is because there were a couple of producers at the strip club and they said, you are going to be a star.

And when they said that, I thought, oh, if

I'm going to I'm going to be a star.

Like if I could be famous, then maybe enough people will.

And if enough people know my name, then maybe I'll hate myself less.

Right.

If enough people recognize me and praise me and affirm me, then maybe I will learn to somehow love myself.

And so I chased after that for many years.

But it didn't matter how much, you know, fame I acquired.