Bron Lewis

So it's just like this constant self-flagellation of like, I know I deserve to be here while she's this upset and I will work it out somehow.

And eventually four months in, a maternal healthcare nurse was like, do you know you have to feed her?

I was like, oh, shit, which you just was not getting enough food.

Oh, okay.

Which I just thought that I had more milk than I did and we went on to formula.

So then that became like that relief of being like, oh, my God, there's a solution here that faded pretty quickly to me just feeling deep, deep regret or just shame.

I know you mentioned in my bio I'm incapable of feeling shame.

That's probably actually one of my favourite emotions is –

But I don't feel shame about the small things.

I think it's the big things that I really struggle with.

But that was like, how did I not know this?

How did I not?

And my mum said to me when I did start on formula, oh, my God, thank God, that poor baby.

Like, why didn't you say anything?

She was like, well, I thought that you'd, I didn't want to offend you.

I was like.

What?

He just let me hear a baby scream because he thought it was going to hurt my little feelings.

Oh, my God.

Yeah.