Bron Lewis

They're like, well, they've got to be entertained.

So they go to singing the songs.

What are they called?

Like there's like places where you go and sing nursery rhymes with your babies and they're useless.

Like they're just like floppy necks and you're just sitting at the back of the thing like going, jingle bells, jingle.

And you're just like this.

I mean, I know that's not a nursery rhyme, but I've got no newborns left, so give me a fucking break here.

Humiliating.

Absolutely.

Yeah, if you just take a step back, so embarrassing for everyone in this room.

No, they need a baritone and a solo for you, mister.

Yeah.

So the days felt like there was always you have to keep moving, you have to keep going, and it's really charged by guilt.

Like if you miss one of these things, like you've stuffed it again and you've spent your first four months of motherhood stuffing it, so let's just maybe not stuff it anymore.

Like I felt like I'd run out of warning shots.

So I was like, okay, I'll just fill the days with things.

Yeah.

And then the nights would come and I remember when I'd feel it getting darker and the dread would rise because I knew that I couldn't just walk to shops or I couldn't just like go to a gym or I couldn't, there wasn't like a distraction.

You're like, here we go, here we go again.

Because you don't know what the night's going to be and chances are it's going to be awful.