Bron Lewis

It felt like a montage.

It felt like a montage in a movie where someone is stressed, but that was 24-7.

So yeah.

It was, I'm not literally hearing it, but it's the feeling I get from those things.

And every, but noises were louder.

So when someone, like someone slam, close a cupboard door, it would shock me.

Like I would be really on edge the whole time.

Yes, yes.

And so, which is awful when you are feeling so annoyed that,

all of the time and then a tiny toddler just gets in your way and you couldn't love that toddler more if you tried but they spill their milk in front of you.

And it's something that every toddler would do, but it feels personal.

You're like, I told you to not put that there, but you can't yell it.

It's a baby that you love.

You can't actually scream at the toddler.

They will take the kids away.

So you bottle it up and you let it seethe and you let it simmer at like the bottom of your throat and

um like a like a stone and you leave it there and as the day goes on it gets bigger and bigger and bigger and then uh you go to bed and don't sleep well and in the morning you go and try and release it somehow by lifting weights that was every single day and it was one day my friend text me

And I was hanging out washing and I was hanging out the washing and I felt really proud of myself because I was hanging out clothes that I'd only been dirty that morning.

And I was like, I'm actually nailing this.

Like such a small moment of victory.