Bron Lewis

You'll go, oh, God, that's all right.

Okay, and your brain will get tricked.

Isn't that how some people get out of like – Lie detectors.

Yeah, they put a pebble in their shoe and when they don't want to – this is good to remember when you get caught for all those murders.

Talking about – So pain was something that I would –

in order to not get the truth, which was the thing that I was desperately fearful of, which was you're not doing a good job and your kids aren't going to be well-rounded and other people are doing better and everyone can see how badly you're doing at this and people are laughing at you.

People are laughing at you and they feel sorry for your kids and Lucas probably should have found someone who was going to be a better mum to his kids and... Yeah.

Yeah.

So I was running from not only from those phrases, all those things, but it was easy to run when I was constantly surrounded by a noise.

And the noise, I was trying to get away from it, but at the same time, the running kind of added to it.

So the noise kind of felt like...

You know, a kettle that is boiling on the stove and no one's turning it off and it felt like, you know, when someone's slamming the cupboards or someone's opening a key but they've got the wrong key and you're just listening, you're inside and you're listening to it, you're like, wrong key, dickhead.

Like obviously you've lived here for ages.

Like number them, number them, put a Band-Aid on one.

Work it out.

You're an adult.

Things like this.

I mean that's.

Coming from experience.

Or just like a car just idling out the front of the house, but it needs a service.