Bron Lewis

We've no idea why they've lost weight or how they've lost weight or how they're feeling about that.

But we are told that we're allowed to.

You don't say, well, you've put on weight.

Like we know that.

We've been trained well enough to not point that out because how awful to put on weight.

So that became something that a huge achievement of mine.

So I was like, gosh, people are – I've got a body that I've always wanted to have and it's never happened to me.

Absolutely.

I felt like a success in this area, whereas at home there was nothing that felt like a success there.

Even though I could not love my babies more and they were safe and fed and well, all of these things that now I know is a successful home, at the time none of it felt like I was getting it right.

Yeah, I definitely do.

I feel like if I – I don't know if I was cognizant of it at the time, but I just felt – I now know if I stopped, I felt worried if I stopped that all of these –

uh, statements or questions, all negative that were just kind of nipping at my heels.

Um, if I stopped, they would hit the back of my head and then I would have to experience them, which were things like, um, it's not, you're not, you're doing a bad job, um, which I kind of, or I could hear whispers of it.

But not if I was running.

If you feel something else, you know how when you're trying to make yourself not laugh, so you've got a laugh that's about to come out and so you'll pinch your palm or you'll bite the inside of your mouth.

Think of things that are funny.

Yes, a distraction.

You just need a distraction, something, and often pain.

We'll do that.