Bron Lewis

which one was it?

Like, what am I supposed to do?

And hide and seek, you can forget about it.

So surely, surely I'm going to be the happiest woman alive if I've got this, this close to it being awful.

And it didn't happen.

Then over a few days and I start to like not wanting to leave the house very much.

I'm like, well, if I leave, you might have an episode and I'll just be here and I'm just constantly watching him.

And I never slept because I didn't want in case he, I would be poking him and making sure that he was still, you know, moving and stuff.

But I was like, well, every mum would do that.

Every parent would just be like, well, if that was awful, I'm going to make sure it's okay.

So everything that I was doing, I was like, this is just normal part of it.

Everything's great.

And then after a few weeks I wasn't leaving the house at all and I was constantly waiting for the noise to come back.

I was waiting for the lights to be too bright.

I was waiting for the kettle to be too noisy.

I was waiting for everyone to slam the doors too much.

I was waiting for the –

the madness to unfold again, but it just didn't and everything seemed quite dull.

I remember not being able to put him down and feeling awful that I ever wanted to.

I was like, this is what you wanted, Bron.