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But she said, I think we'll just have this tablet and I've done the score because they do like a depressing, what's it called?

They do the test after you've had a baby.

They want to see how depressed you are.

I can't remember what it is, Edinburgh or something, I'm not sure.

And do this test.

And she's like, you just don't panic but you've scored a little bit high on that and I reckon we'll just start this and we'll see how you go.

And I went over to the chemist and I'd realised that there was like a pep in my step.

Like I was like, oh, I knew there was something in me which hadn't really recognised but I knew that I needed that.

I was like, oh, this is going to hurry up.

What are you waiting for?

You know it's helped you in the past.

So I got this medicine.

I came home.

I took it and I know it doesn't kick in like for a bit but within hours I was like, I'm killed.

I worked it out.

I'm okay.

I'm going to be fine.

But the weeks up until that were the darkest, most awful days where the difference between postnatal anxiety and depression is just like night and day.

Postnatal anxiety was loud and it was bright and it was chaotic and there was so much movement.

But with postnatal depression, for me, it was like this stillness and this darkness and there was no flicker of light to be seen.