Bryce Crawford

And so, you know, I think—

I mean, sorry.

Good and bad.

So what do you think that means for you?

You know, I mean, like we...

I'll tell you a little bit about my story.

I grew up in the South.

I grew up going to church.

I went to a private Christian school.

But I had a big problem with Christianity when I was growing up because there were a lot of people that said that they loved Jesus, but their actions were the opposite of Christianity.

And they were forcing me how to live my life, but they were doing the total opposite.

And so I had issues with that.

There was hypocrisy I saw.

There was a pastor in my hometown who had cheated on his wife, stole money from the church and ran.

And then I remember when I was in the eighth grade, my grandfather had passed away to pancreatic cancer and I blamed God for his death.

And so I just had developed depression and anxiety for years and was felt hopeless despair.

I've never drank, I've never done drugs or anything, but I had a porn addiction.

I had an addiction set people pleasing.

I tried to find my identity in sports, all this other stuff.

And when I was 17, I was going to take my life on Christmas Day of 2020.