Candyce

That's one of the biggest reasons why when I saw your TikToks and I saw that you do guest-based podcast, I was like, this would be amazing to speak out about SIDS and just spread awareness and let parents know that, yes, it's scary and it's anxiety-inducing, but it can happen.

Just because it didn't happen before doesn't mean that it can't happen later on.

And it's not to like make people more scared or anything, but it's just I never, ever thought that.

Well, also, whenever I bring it up, I'm very open about talking about this, but I'll bring it up to a stranger and they'll say, oh, what's SIDS?

And I'll explain it's sudden infant death.

And they're like, I had no clue that was a thing.

More people should know that this is a possibility.

I knew about it beforehand, but again, I didn't think it was ever going to happen to us.

Yeah.

Yeah, because it's bad enough that I already have the guilt that I could have gone in the middle of the night when she – not in the middle of the night, but when she had woken up that night and was just awake.

My mom keeps having to remind me, too, that say I did bring her in bed with me that night, she still could have passed away right next to me.

Yeah.

So I have all of this guilt, but for other people to...

think that I did anything wrong.

I think I did what any parent could do, and that was the best that I could do.

Her crib was empty.

She didn't have any toys, no crib bumpers.

She had her binky.

She had a zip-up swaddle blanket.

We did everything that we possibly could to keep our baby safe, and it still happened to us.