Candyce

I just feel like I'm doing it all by myself.

I think I'm scared too because I don't want to go and hang out with my friends and bring the room down with me being there.

I honestly feel like a lot of people avoid talking to me and

hanging out with me for that reason.

And that's really unsettling too, but I don't hold it against them.

And I think that's really hard, too, because I'm such... I'd like to think of myself as such a, like, giving person.

Like, my love language is definitely gift-giving.

And I'm not saying that materialistic things are what brings friends together and everything.

Yeah, but you enjoy it.

Yeah, that's something that I love to do for my friends.

I love to show out.

I love to be around them.

I would love to just hang out with them on the couch and do absolutely nothing all day.

But this whole entire year...

at the beginning when everything happened with Delilah, every single person, if you need anything, let me know.

I need you to be there.

I shouldn't have to beg and ask you guys to do anything for me.

I just want you to remember I am going through the worst time in my life and I feel so alone.

And there's only so many times I can go and cry to my mom without feeling like I'm bugging her, which I know that I'm not, but

It's a sense of normalcy.