Cara Delevingne

I don't want to say, I could die happy, but it is, everything has led me to this point.

And when I've done other things like movies or cabaret on the West End or something,

there's other pressure on other people to make it good.

So there's less pressure on you because you're like, everyone needs the show to be good, so it's gonna be good.

It felt like it was way more on me or I was putting it on me because no one else is gonna be like, it needs, I mean, they are, but in the sense that I'm like- No, it's you, it's you.

I'm doing this and I'm choosing to do this to myself and I'm driving myself crazy because the pressure I can put on myself is sometimes unmanageable.

So yeah, I mean, it takes a strain on my relationship, on like, you know, my incredible girlfriend has been so supportive through this.

I wouldn't have been able to do this without her, this whole process.

She's a musician.

I was so scared about what her reaction was going to be.

What was it?

She was so incredible about it.

I cried.

It was so soon after I got out of rehab.

And I remember every day I prayed.

I prayed to create something with this pain and to have...

the clarity and the confidence and the awareness and all of it to be able to make something from it.

And I didn't want to name what it was, but I was like, what else would it be?

Like, what else would it be?

I write all this stuff.