Caroline Foran

So now I'm not.

And they're like, and this has been going on for a few weeks.

I'm like, I know I don't want to be in this situation.

But when I would leave, they'd be like, you have to come back.

We can't calm him down.

And I was like, I'm so distraught running an experiment on my child so that you will believe me.

This is not just a case of me.

I don't want to be without my mommy.

And then, OK, I'm distracted.

It just wasn't happening.

There was no distraction.

It was deep physiological unsafety.

God almighty, it sounds so difficult.

Yeah, and it wasn't.

Again, like so much of the difficulty is just the cultural.

I had to go against the grain and I really felt so isolated in that.

I didn't know of anyone else who didn't persevere enough.

Like if you try hard enough, it will just happen.

I was like, I'm trying so hard.

so that making those decisions to pull him out was like where did I go wrong like they were all the questions you know I would ask myself I was so upset all the time and I had to just let his nervous system recover and I mean the impact of all those things was not just I don't want to be in school it was I can't leave the house like I don't want to leave the house barely with my mother let alone with anyone else and that's like still really hard for us to this day so when it came to school I was like I can't fuck this up