Caroline Foran

It was going great.

He's now my husband.

And I was in a job that I loved.

I was interviewing movie stars.

Like, every week it was, I was...

feeling fear but a good like I was on I was inside my window of tolerance but I was like I was pushing myself in a good way it was like a natural fear that's important to experience and then I left that job I just went into a new job for a startup and I just thought I've missed out on so much for my whole life I need to keep pushing pushing push and have all these experiences and I just pushed myself too far and I guess the job it was nothing really to do with the job but it was it just it was the match that like lit up the fire that was probably always the broken

The straw, yeah, like it was the barrel was loaded and this set it off and it was probably always going to unearth itself again at some point to the extent that I'd have to confront it.

And this time I started to get really unwell again.

I was desperate.

Took me issues again.

Took me issues again and I descended like from being okay to being like unable to even stand up.

I was in so much pain.

I felt so unwell.

And I was just like, I'd go to the doctor and I'd just be sent home with like a load of either laxatives or the opposite stuff you up stuff.

Not once even then was it like, maybe there's more going on here.

How are you feeling?

And it got to the point where it was so bad.

My body was trying to communicate me like, you're not okay.

This is not okay.

I knew in my head, I don't like this job.