Caroline Foran
👤 SpeakerAppearances Over Time
Podcast Appearances
I understand completely.
It makes sense why I would have felt it.
I think it makes sense for most people when they can tease apart the layers of what's going on.
I used to think that being well and being okay was a measure of like how long it had been since my last panic attack.
But that keeps you stuck in this cycle of like, well, what if it happens?
And then that means I'm not doing okay.
And you get anxiety from the anxiety.
That was the thing.
Fear of the fear, anxiety about anxiety was the worst thing for me.
It wasn't, I was never anxious about something tangible, like I have to go and do this job.
I was so frightened that I was so capable and vulnerable to falling apart.
Like, I think it's such a human fear.
Like, what if I just lose it?
And I really felt like I lost myself.
I didn't have control over my body.
I didn't, my thoughts were just not my own.
Do you think you hit like rock bottom?
Yeah, absolutely.
Was that before you had your son?
Yeah, yeah.