Carrie

He did what he had to do so that he felt like we were safe. That's the only way it makes sense to me, knowing Mick the way that we knew Mick.

He did what he had to do so that he felt like we were safe. That's the only way it makes sense to me, knowing Mick the way that we knew Mick.

I don't know. I don't know. He destroyed my life for a long time. Took away things I loved. Took away Mick. He's a sick man. I don't know that I would say anything to him. I don't know that he even deserves words. I might thank him for not killing me that night. Because he easily could have. He easily could have taken me away from my kids and my family.

I don't know. I don't know. He destroyed my life for a long time. Took away things I loved. Took away Mick. He's a sick man. I don't know that I would say anything to him. I don't know that he even deserves words. I might thank him for not killing me that night. Because he easily could have. He easily could have taken me away from my kids and my family.

And you know, he didn't just destroy part of my life. Cindy was a human. Cindy had a family. And so many times I've wished that I could talk to her family and tell them how sorry I am for the choices that I made that night. I wasn't with them. I didn't have anything to do with what happened to her other than I gave in and I gave them my keys. And I want them to know that I'm sorry I did that.

And you know, he didn't just destroy part of my life. Cindy was a human. Cindy had a family. And so many times I've wished that I could talk to her family and tell them how sorry I am for the choices that I made that night. I wasn't with them. I didn't have anything to do with what happened to her other than I gave in and I gave them my keys. And I want them to know that I'm sorry I did that.

I have lived with so much guilt over her dying for so long, almost 30 years. And I want her family to know that I'm sorry. I'm sorry that my decision to give them the keys took Cindy away from them.

I have lived with so much guilt over her dying for so long, almost 30 years. And I want her family to know that I'm sorry. I'm sorry that my decision to give them the keys took Cindy away from them.

So many people say it's not my fault, and I know that, but it does not take that guilt away. I've lived with it for so long. It's so heavy. But it does not take that guilt away. I've tried to convince myself, you had nothing to do with it. You had nothing to do with it. And so many people say that to me.

So many people say it's not my fault, and I know that, but it does not take that guilt away. I've lived with it for so long. It's so heavy. But it does not take that guilt away. I've tried to convince myself, you had nothing to do with it. You had nothing to do with it. And so many people say that to me.

But unless you've walked in my shoes and been the person that said, go ahead, take my keys, and then this happens... then you will never understand how I feel. This will haunt me forever. I struggle with the guilt I feel over Cindy's death more than losing Mick, losing the man that I was so in love with. The fact that Cindy died weighs way heavier on me than losing Mick.

But unless you've walked in my shoes and been the person that said, go ahead, take my keys, and then this happens... then you will never understand how I feel. This will haunt me forever. I struggle with the guilt I feel over Cindy's death more than losing Mick, losing the man that I was so in love with. The fact that Cindy died weighs way heavier on me than losing Mick.

Yeah, and I hope he stays there, because I don't care how old he gets, if that man ever gets out, I'll still be afraid of him. Yeah, I put him behind bars, but a lot of fear came with that, and it's still there.

Yeah, and I hope he stays there, because I don't care how old he gets, if that man ever gets out, I'll still be afraid of him. Yeah, I put him behind bars, but a lot of fear came with that, and it's still there.

I still have nightmares that I'm found, that somebody comes to get me. I still have those nightmares. They're never gonna go away.

I still have nightmares that I'm found, that somebody comes to get me. I still have those nightmares. They're never gonna go away.

So what happens when he gets out? I'm hoping to be the one to pick him up from prison.

So what happens when he gets out? I'm hoping to be the one to pick him up from prison.

I hope that it is. I was trying to keep it together, but I just have this image in my head of what it would be like To see him after all of these years and to feel him give me a hug. The one thing that I was denied the day that he was found guilty was a hug. The bailiff told the officer that was in the room, just let him have a hug. And the officer was like, no, I can't do that.

I hope that it is. I was trying to keep it together, but I just have this image in my head of what it would be like To see him after all of these years and to feel him give me a hug. The one thing that I was denied the day that he was found guilty was a hug. The bailiff told the officer that was in the room, just let him have a hug. And the officer was like, no, I can't do that.