Chani Nicholas

But she opened up this book and she asked the person I was with what my birthday was. And then she got my birthday and she like dragged her figure down the page and landed on my birthday and looked up at me and said, you're really judgmental. Oh my gosh. And I thought, yes, yes, I am. None of these fuckers have any judgment whatsoever. I am the one who is like, this is not okay.

And nobody listens to me. Yes. So that was my like beginning intro, but that was pretty much all the person said to me. And I didn't even really know what judgment was, but it felt hefty. It had enough like ballast to it that I was like, yeah, give me more of that. So then when I was 12, my father had moved into a third family iteration and his mother-in-law bought us all an astrology chart.

And nobody listens to me. Yes. So that was my like beginning intro, but that was pretty much all the person said to me. And I didn't even really know what judgment was, but it felt hefty. It had enough like ballast to it that I was like, yeah, give me more of that. So then when I was 12, my father had moved into a third family iteration and his mother-in-law bought us all an astrology chart.

And nobody listens to me. Yes. So that was my like beginning intro, but that was pretty much all the person said to me. And I didn't even really know what judgment was, but it felt hefty. It had enough like ballast to it that I was like, yeah, give me more of that. So then when I was 12, my father had moved into a third family iteration and his mother-in-law bought us all an astrology chart.

reading like the whole new family. And so we went to it and this woman started talking about how different we all were and why. And it was so incredibly helpful because again, someone was seeing me and distinguishing all of us. And I was a kid that didn't have any tools. I didn't have a lot of adults that were interested in being introspective. And so this language was like,

reading like the whole new family. And so we went to it and this woman started talking about how different we all were and why. And it was so incredibly helpful because again, someone was seeing me and distinguishing all of us. And I was a kid that didn't have any tools. I didn't have a lot of adults that were interested in being introspective. And so this language was like,

reading like the whole new family. And so we went to it and this woman started talking about how different we all were and why. And it was so incredibly helpful because again, someone was seeing me and distinguishing all of us. And I was a kid that didn't have any tools. I didn't have a lot of adults that were interested in being introspective. And so this language was like,

oh, wow, this is describing people's not only personalities, but ways of being and why. And all of it's perfect. And all of us are different. And I think a thing about being a codependent child is that you don't know how to distinguish yourself from other people. And you don't know that you're different because you're so enmeshed with everybody's stuff.

oh, wow, this is describing people's not only personalities, but ways of being and why. And all of it's perfect. And all of us are different. And I think a thing about being a codependent child is that you don't know how to distinguish yourself from other people. And you don't know that you're different because you're so enmeshed with everybody's stuff.

oh, wow, this is describing people's not only personalities, but ways of being and why. And all of it's perfect. And all of us are different. And I think a thing about being a codependent child is that you don't know how to distinguish yourself from other people. And you don't know that you're different because you're so enmeshed with everybody's stuff.

And you're just trying to survive, which means you're just trying to take care of everybody. which means you don't have needs or they come two millionth on the list and you're always going towards other people. So this woman was able to give me an outline and I felt like I started to exist for the first time or one of the first times in my life. And she had written a book.

And you're just trying to survive, which means you're just trying to take care of everybody. which means you don't have needs or they come two millionth on the list and you're always going towards other people. So this woman was able to give me an outline and I felt like I started to exist for the first time or one of the first times in my life. And she had written a book.

And you're just trying to survive, which means you're just trying to take care of everybody. which means you don't have needs or they come two millionth on the list and you're always going towards other people. So this woman was able to give me an outline and I felt like I started to exist for the first time or one of the first times in my life. And she had written a book.

And so my dad bought me the book and I've been studying astrology ever since.

And so my dad bought me the book and I've been studying astrology ever since.

And so my dad bought me the book and I've been studying astrology ever since.

And also like, this is why my stepsister... isn't bothered by this thing is so much suffering for me, or this is why my stepbrother, this is why my stepmom, or this is why my dad, or this is why my mom, you know, it like is a really beautiful tool, especially at that age, because 12 is the age where you start to really kind of do that stuff.

And also like, this is why my stepsister... isn't bothered by this thing is so much suffering for me, or this is why my stepbrother, this is why my stepmom, or this is why my dad, or this is why my mom, you know, it like is a really beautiful tool, especially at that age, because 12 is the age where you start to really kind of do that stuff.

And also like, this is why my stepsister... isn't bothered by this thing is so much suffering for me, or this is why my stepbrother, this is why my stepmom, or this is why my dad, or this is why my mom, you know, it like is a really beautiful tool, especially at that age, because 12 is the age where you start to really kind of do that stuff.

Yeah, it was a life raft for me. and also being, you know, named the sensitive child because things were upsetting and it upset me.