Charli XCX

things like that when she was not only growing up but even when she was like living in our our town like I remember one day she she came home because she'd kind of had like a milkshake thrown over her and been told to go home and things like that and I've you know been very lucky that I haven't had to experience that probably because I'm a lot more passing than she is um but yeah it's it is interesting kind of being from both worlds and not particularly feeling like I belonged in either um

And it's also funny because I think doing what I do now, I definitely feel that sometimes when I Google myself, which I do, I sometimes see that people are sort of like mad that I don't really talk about this side of my life that much.

But the reason I don't is because no one asks me.

So now that you have kind of sat here and asked me, I'm more than willing and happy to talk about it.

I just feel very awkward about using like my culture as a USP.

Like I find it to be kind of a little bit.

And it's not something that I feel like I really want to do because there are parts of me that feel distant from both sides of my upbringing.

But when someone asks me about it, I'm so happy to talk about it.

Oh my gosh, 100%.

And I wouldn't say that that just comes from

my heritage it's like that I think for me uh comes from feeling I felt like I was a loser you know like I so like it was like coming which and I feel like so many artists have that experience of like they're they're just they've just feel so isolated and alone and uncool and all you know all the the things or whatever I don't know and I definitely felt that way and

and still do.

And I think it's actually why I used the word nervous at the top of

this is because often when i meet people i'm at a party and it's night time and there are so many additional things that can help me feel relaxed you know what i mean um and we're talking about hot chocolate yes yeah and i'm not drinking hot chocolate right now you know what i mean so it's like oh then you should try hard drugs right yeah yeah yeah

I don't.

Everyone thinks I do, but I just, I don't.

But yeah, so it's like in the cold light of day, sometimes I do get a little bit nervous.

And I kind of revert back to that younger girl who I think...

sometimes would feel really out of her comfort zone when meeting people and feeling like, you know, you have to sort of like establish that you're like a functioning human with a brain and things like that.

And sometimes it's like, ah, so yeah.