Charlotte Cummings

But to do that, I had to face my unbearable feeling.

I had to live in something I didn't like.

I had to live in something that didn't look flesh.

But I've made relationships now.

There are people that I can go and have a coffee with and have a play date with my kids.

There are people that I can chat to at the school pickup.

Of course, I can back myself to have some people skills to talk to people and to get to know them.

Like,

It just kind of defies belief when you hear it out loud and when my career has been in this kind of people space.

But it is really important for us to be able to face those blocks and those barriers.

I thought, oh my goodness, we are doing the wrong thing and this is awful and what have I done?

And also we project our unbearable feeling on our kids.

So I was thinking, oh, my kids are going to be rejected.

They're not going to make friends.

So a lot of my insecurities were things that I was projecting onto their experience.

Just none of it has turned out to be true.

It doesn't feel silly.

It feels like it totally makes sense.

Sorry, terrible pun to use on this podcast.

It feels like, well, you know, why wouldn't I feel that?