Charlotte Seaman

So yeah, like four and five is your resentments, what's happened to you over the years, what have you done?

And then step eight and nine is when you make amends to people.

Yeah, nearly 18 months, yeah.

I'm nearly 500 days clean.

No, I don't get temptations.

I've never had a temptation to have a crack pipe or a bit of smack since I've been clean.

Never.

I think I was so fucking, I was so done with it and it was so painful, the psychosis, the lot.

I'm not naive enough.

I know that, you know, it never goes away.

But sometimes alcohol can pop in.

where my head tries to tell me that I can have a drink, but I can't because I am an addict and I don't ever want to take that risk.

And once I start, I can't fucking stop.

And drink, you make bad decisions on it anyway.

You know, but a drink for me will lead to two and then I'll be back on the streets homeless with a needle.

hanging out my groin.

That's my reality.

Yeah.

Yeah.

I mean, there was a lot of guilt and shame that come up, obviously, with myself, you know, and my children.