Chloe Cole

And that would be when – I mean I – once I went to my freshman year, I pretty much looked and sounded like any other boy my age.

And I went through most of my high school career being perceived as a young man with most people other than those who went to school with me before having no clue who I actually was.

And so I was actually accepted amongst my peers as a young man.

And even though I thought that I was happy for a while.

I mean, I was really starting to feel the burden of all this on my shoulders because I knew even deep down that I was lying to everybody around me and even myself.

And every day at school, I would come back home.

I would take off this binder, this compression device.

I would like squish my breasts into my body to make it look like they weren't there.

And I'd still see no matter how hard I tried, I still was a woman.

And that it was kind of a futile effort.

And that was what made me start to think about surgery because I was like, okay, my body is –

Well, maybe the problem isn't the transition itself.

I just need to go further into it so I can be truly happy and never have to think about this ever again.

And at 15 years old, that was when I went under the knife to remove my breasts.

So, I mean, I've always been straight.

And for when I was growing up, I was pretty boy crazy.

I had all sorts of crushes on celebrities, on classmates.

And...

I don't think the drugs really suppressed that.

It was definitely socially awkward.