Chloe Cole

But we're also going to take your areolas, the skin around your nipples, and we are going to basically –

cut that and make it so that it's in and like paste it onto a part of the chest to make it into a more masculine appearance and positioning.

And I mean, I feel like to any adult with common sense, that already sounds pretty, pretty gory.

And it's a very, it's a very, it's a horrific process to go through.

But it didn't help that it was so matter of fact about it.

And they use these cute terms like top surgery and bottom surgery to make it sound like it's less scary than it actually is.

I mean, his attitude around it seemed to be so nonchalant both before and after the surgery.

I asked him a year after I detransitioned, I think, in a consultation I had with him because I was actually having complications from the grafts that he made that were just not healing.

They started bleeding.

I started having other issues with them.

And I couldn't help but...

meekly ask him at the time, why would you do this to me?

And he was very blunt.

He was very matter-of-fact again in his response of, well, I thought it was okay because you had another doctor sign off on this.

There's no critical thinking on the part of these doctors who do this.

They just think, okay, this is the standard.

This is what I've been trained to do and somebody else signed off on it, so it must be okay.

They're not – and I can understand what leads to that mentally because especially when you're a surgeon, you have to kind of separate the human being from the body.

Otherwise, you're just thinking about the fact that you're cutting into flesh all the time.

But you can't let that override your instincts and your judgment as a doctor and as an adult.