Chloe Cole

I shrunk.

I didn't want to be a burden.

But in doing so, I kind of denied myself of building an identity in a normal way.

I think that a lot of kids do at that time.

And that was what added to the confusion.

So after a period of kind of sitting with myself and asking myself questions like, who am I?

Just going through these different labels like, oh, maybe I'm a lesbian.

Maybe I'm bisexual.

And then eventually settling on just thinking that I was a boy because I always felt like I was more like my big brothers than my big sisters and the girls around me.

I went through a period where I just didn't really tell anybody other than people who I knew on the internet about it, because I was really afraid of how people at school and people in my family would react about such a, such a big change in my life.

And I wanted to start to change my appearance before I tried to convince the people around me that I was, I was somebody else.

I mean, I guess it would help to put it into perspective by talking about –

I do love a sign.

I love a sign to birth.

That gender is this internal sense of being either male or female or somewhere in between or out of those things.

Right.

And that some people just so happen to be born with a sense that they were in the wrong body.

Right.

And that those people – that presents as like distress around your body and wanting to be more like the opposite sex either physically or behaviorally.

And the only way for those people to become happy is by going down this particular lifestyle and for a lot of them, this experimental lifelong set of procedures.