Chloe Kelly

And yeah, that was a point.

And I was like, wow, like...

I'm out of an environment where it's made me feel so low, but now I can see how it did affect me and it wasn't a nice place, but I feel in a good place now.

Yeah, panic attacks and having to call my mum and I thought I was having a heart attack at times and not knowing what was going on with your body.

But when my hair was coming out, I was just like...

how am I gonna I remember googling like can I go fully bald and that was the first question I asked the specialist I was like can I go and she was like looking at it now like no but it takes three months so you can see the change for three months after the highest level of stress so yeah it was for the next three months like waiting and seeing and

yeah putting creams and now I look in my hair and my hair's grown back and I remember on camp just now I had my hair in a pony and I could see like my hair growing outwards in the pony I'm like oh that's embarrassing need to get more hairspray on that but I can see now like

incredible things have happened since taking that step and taking that step forward but I think for for women that are in a dark place and anyone that's in a dark place like speaking up and speaking out is really important and my journey I'm I'm very grateful for the highs and lows that have shaped me and allowed me to sit in this room today and speak to yourself because actually

And I think those are the ones that you learn so much about yourself.

I think my ACL injury I learned a lot about myself but this definitely I learned way more of how I control what I can and some things you can't control.

I feel in a good place.

I feel like I'm out the other side.

I remember we moved house not too long ago and Scott got me a weighted blanket.

Oh, they are heaven.

They are incredible if you're going through a tough time.

They're so good.

They got me a lot out of my anxiety, just putting it around me.

And we moved house not too long ago and Scott was like, do you want me to bring your anxiety blanket?

And I was like, no.

I don't need that anymore and I think that for me was like I'm out of that and that's not what I want to go back to don't get me wrong there's times where I recognize some of the triggers and I start to then manage that a lot better but for me it's recognizing them triggers a lot better now and I feel like I'm in a place where I'm really happy I'm surrounded by amazing people and