Chloe Kelly

But when I got home, it was like my battery was worn out.

So I got home and it was like deflated.

I'd like to go to, I'd go and have a nap and

I'd go and sit in a dark room because actually it took a lot to put on a brave face.

So for me, yeah, for sure, being around people made me happy.

So I think now I still like to be around people to make me happy, but knowing when I need to take the step away to not have to put on a brave face as such, it's

this is what I need to be at my best and learning on the way I think knowing people that make you at your best and knowing when people don't and it's just learning as you go through your career but one thing I would say is my teammates that I was surrounded by throughout my whole career but especially in dark moments I'm forever grateful for

Yeah, for sure.

I think like the messages that I was receiving from the girls, just checking in, checking if I was okay.

And that was something that I'll never forget.

And even when I took the step to Arsenal and being around the girls that I'd not seen for years, that was special to me.

But Scott and my mum that were on the journey throughout, I think...

I'll always be grateful for because it was those that I was waking up at early hours in the morning for a walk or just to FaceTime my mom or my mom coming up and just spending more days of me than she was going to.

So I think those are the ones that I'm very grateful for the most that

just seen the journey I think there's people that obviously don't realise to what extent it went to but even Scott just massaging the cream in my head for my alopecia but those are the times that I'll never forget and I remember one day

I just seen him beaming with a smile and he's like, your hair's growing back.

And I think he could, the happiness it put on his face because he knew how happy it would make me that there was starting to be change within that.

So for me, I'm just, yeah, surround yourself with good people and people that make you happy and people that make you feel good.

But also those that will tell you, no, that's not good enough, Chloe, or no, I think you're being a bit of a prat.

I couldn't get myself off there but you will and I think those are the times where you realize right this is the person for me and yeah I think we're we're literally just best friends we do everything together so I'm glad that we could look back on like our life and he's been with me throughout the darkest times but the highest times as well yeah it was so important for sure