Chris Appleton

I just didn't know what I'd done.

I was so confused.

I was like, I haven't done any.

I don't even know who they are.

Wow.

but it was because I did hair and they said,

then you're gay.

And like I say, so I very quickly kind of thought, well, I'm not going to, I'm not gay and I'm not stupid.

And I just got really headstrong on wanting to prove people wrong.

So you shut down that?

Really badly.

And I didn't, I would, I mean, if you've asked me through my teens and my early twenties, I would never have said I would.

I didn't know.

I wasn't aware that I was doing that, but I was on such a mission to prove everyone wrong and to do what society told me to do, which was be normal, be normal.

You know, I just didn't want to be different.

When I came out as gay, everyone said, well, you must've always known that I didn't, I wasn't watching gay porn.

I wasn't thinking about guys when I was having sex with girls.

I wasn't.

like secretly meeting I felt like I my life was great I had two kids I had kids when I was 19 like I felt really happy I felt great so then when I did come out because my relationship with my partner uh we'd been together nine years broke down I kind of was just I thought I was just like kind of having fun my career was taking off I was traveling a lot with work and you know I

And then I remember one night this guy like tried to kiss me and we'd had a lot of drink and I was always around gay people because of, you know, the industry I work in.