Chris Fettes

So when we are going about the environment we create for our kids and whatever all these parents are doing is like, I think there might be a little bit of an assumption that like, oh, they're just not going to remember all of this because they're kids, you know? But it's all in there. So... That... you know, realizing that that was my real father.

And then in the future, seeing some of those things coming out in me was a big kind of awakening moment, right? To realize- What age did he leave? So my mom finally divorced him. You know, I try to talk to her about it. I think it's a traumatizing thing for her as well, obviously. And my grandfather, a really strong man, he passed away a couple years ago in my mom's home.

And then in the future, seeing some of those things coming out in me was a big kind of awakening moment, right? To realize- What age did he leave? So my mom finally divorced him. You know, I try to talk to her about it. I think it's a traumatizing thing for her as well, obviously. And my grandfather, a really strong man, he passed away a couple years ago in my mom's home.

And then in the future, seeing some of those things coming out in me was a big kind of awakening moment, right? To realize- What age did he leave? So my mom finally divorced him. You know, I try to talk to her about it. I think it's a traumatizing thing for her as well, obviously. And my grandfather, a really strong man, he passed away a couple years ago in my mom's home.

I was there during his hospice. He was an orphan himself, so he experienced a really tough childhood. Him and his brother were orphans. Their parents abandoned them. And then they grew up with, you know, a couple different foster parents. But they both became very successful. They both, you know, he spent a long career in the Army. He retired as a colonel, did two tours of Vietnam.

I was there during his hospice. He was an orphan himself, so he experienced a really tough childhood. Him and his brother were orphans. Their parents abandoned them. And then they grew up with, you know, a couple different foster parents. But they both became very successful. They both, you know, he spent a long career in the Army. He retired as a colonel, did two tours of Vietnam.

I was there during his hospice. He was an orphan himself, so he experienced a really tough childhood. Him and his brother were orphans. Their parents abandoned them. And then they grew up with, you know, a couple different foster parents. But they both became very successful. They both, you know, he spent a long career in the Army. He retired as a colonel, did two tours of Vietnam.

And then when he got out, he started, worked his way up through a company called Airframe that manufactured and sold airplane parts and components to Japanese companies. And he became fluent in Japanese. So When that was all going on with my mom, I believe that there was some influence from him to go, I need you to leave this guy, right?

And then when he got out, he started, worked his way up through a company called Airframe that manufactured and sold airplane parts and components to Japanese companies. And he became fluent in Japanese. So When that was all going on with my mom, I believe that there was some influence from him to go, I need you to leave this guy, right?

And then when he got out, he started, worked his way up through a company called Airframe that manufactured and sold airplane parts and components to Japanese companies. And he became fluent in Japanese. So When that was all going on with my mom, I believe that there was some influence from him to go, I need you to leave this guy, right?

And almost, I don't know if there was ever an ultimatum, but she finally made the right decision. And divorced him. How old were you? I'm not quite sure. I think I was about five, almost six years old, maybe. Shit, so you do have memories back to that young. Yes, absolutely. And they're very specific little memories, you know? Like, what's your first memory? You know what I mean?

And almost, I don't know if there was ever an ultimatum, but she finally made the right decision. And divorced him. How old were you? I'm not quite sure. I think I was about five, almost six years old, maybe. Shit, so you do have memories back to that young. Yes, absolutely. And they're very specific little memories, you know? Like, what's your first memory? You know what I mean?

And almost, I don't know if there was ever an ultimatum, but she finally made the right decision. And divorced him. How old were you? I'm not quite sure. I think I was about five, almost six years old, maybe. Shit, so you do have memories back to that young. Yes, absolutely. And they're very specific little memories, you know? Like, what's your first memory? You know what I mean?

That's hard for people to think right in the moment. But if you sit down, you meditate maybe, you think about it, you can go back like, oh, yeah. You know, there's a memory I had from when I was probably five years old or four years old that I slipped on like a slippery concrete, bonked my head, and I must have gotten knocked out because the next thing I saw was my mom's face.

That's hard for people to think right in the moment. But if you sit down, you meditate maybe, you think about it, you can go back like, oh, yeah. You know, there's a memory I had from when I was probably five years old or four years old that I slipped on like a slippery concrete, bonked my head, and I must have gotten knocked out because the next thing I saw was my mom's face.

That's hard for people to think right in the moment. But if you sit down, you meditate maybe, you think about it, you can go back like, oh, yeah. You know, there's a memory I had from when I was probably five years old or four years old that I slipped on like a slippery concrete, bonked my head, and I must have gotten knocked out because the next thing I saw was my mom's face.

I remember that, you know? And there's another memory before that where I was getting like, I was playing in an ant pile. I might have been four years old during this time. And I got covered in fire ants and I was screaming and my mom grabbed me and threw me in a bathtub to drown all the ants. And those get imprinted because they're sensational memories outside of your everyday playing as a kid.

I remember that, you know? And there's another memory before that where I was getting like, I was playing in an ant pile. I might have been four years old during this time. And I got covered in fire ants and I was screaming and my mom grabbed me and threw me in a bathtub to drown all the ants. And those get imprinted because they're sensational memories outside of your everyday playing as a kid.

I remember that, you know? And there's another memory before that where I was getting like, I was playing in an ant pile. I might have been four years old during this time. And I got covered in fire ants and I was screaming and my mom grabbed me and threw me in a bathtub to drown all the ants. And those get imprinted because they're sensational memories outside of your everyday playing as a kid.

But I also have those memories about my father and him, the way he grabbed me to talk to me, to like, you know, I just have memories of him sitting next to me. You know, he had a thick mustache. And the energy that I remember was not good. You know, that... biological connection between a father and son I felt I don't think was there, right?