Chris Fettes

I went back and a couple days later, the wife of my friend that took his life there just randomly called me. And she was like, how you doing? And I was like, fuck, that's not good.

I went back and a couple days later, the wife of my friend that took his life there just randomly called me. And she was like, how you doing? And I was like, fuck, that's not good.

she goes oh let me come over and talk to you and i was like yeah that'd be awesome you know because i knew what she must what she had gone through with her husband's taking his life and how that was a whole process and she figured something out because she was not she was something better after that after some years and so she's the one who introduced me into the the medicine.

she goes oh let me come over and talk to you and i was like yeah that'd be awesome you know because i knew what she must what she had gone through with her husband's taking his life and how that was a whole process and she figured something out because she was not she was something better after that after some years and so she's the one who introduced me into the the medicine.

she goes oh let me come over and talk to you and i was like yeah that'd be awesome you know because i knew what she must what she had gone through with her husband's taking his life and how that was a whole process and she figured something out because she was not she was something better after that after some years and so she's the one who introduced me into the the medicine.

So I went, I was like, dude, I'll do anything. I don't care what it is. I'll go. And I'm, yeah, I was scared, but I was like willing to do, to try anything. And so I went that we can go through that hole as a whole nother discussion, but it just completely opened up my heart to seeing through all this bullshit that was on top to go, fuck, you can just make a choice.

So I went, I was like, dude, I'll do anything. I don't care what it is. I'll go. And I'm, yeah, I was scared, but I was like willing to do, to try anything. And so I went that we can go through that hole as a whole nother discussion, but it just completely opened up my heart to seeing through all this bullshit that was on top to go, fuck, you can just make a choice.

So I went, I was like, dude, I'll do anything. I don't care what it is. I'll go. And I'm, yeah, I was scared, but I was like willing to do, to try anything. And so I went that we can go through that hole as a whole nother discussion, but it just completely opened up my heart to seeing through all this bullshit that was on top to go, fuck, you can just make a choice.

So I made a choice and pretty quickly I was able to get rid of all that bullshit. Just shoveling it out to where it was like pretty much empty. And now I was just in full clarity to now go back to that night and go, fuck, why did that happen? How did that happen? So then I was able to go pick it apart and go, hey, I did what I think is the right thing in duty, right?

So I made a choice and pretty quickly I was able to get rid of all that bullshit. Just shoveling it out to where it was like pretty much empty. And now I was just in full clarity to now go back to that night and go, fuck, why did that happen? How did that happen? So then I was able to go pick it apart and go, hey, I did what I think is the right thing in duty, right?

So I made a choice and pretty quickly I was able to get rid of all that bullshit. Just shoveling it out to where it was like pretty much empty. And now I was just in full clarity to now go back to that night and go, fuck, why did that happen? How did that happen? So then I was able to go pick it apart and go, hey, I did what I think is the right thing in duty, right?

Because I know how the universe works. If I didn't do that, we'd have all gotten blown up or somebody would have gotten shot and now I'd be dealing with that, right? We're not here. But also saying maybe that wouldn't have happened because if that's a little bit of a justification for it, then fine, but you know how the universe works, you know?

Because I know how the universe works. If I didn't do that, we'd have all gotten blown up or somebody would have gotten shot and now I'd be dealing with that, right? We're not here. But also saying maybe that wouldn't have happened because if that's a little bit of a justification for it, then fine, but you know how the universe works, you know?

Because I know how the universe works. If I didn't do that, we'd have all gotten blown up or somebody would have gotten shot and now I'd be dealing with that, right? We're not here. But also saying maybe that wouldn't have happened because if that's a little bit of a justification for it, then fine, but you know how the universe works, you know?

And so now going to separate duty completely from it to go For my soul, it was not the right answer. So I know that, right? And so now what I do is I've spent so much time now, instead of forgetting about those kids, thinking about them and trying to place myself in their shoes

And so now going to separate duty completely from it to go For my soul, it was not the right answer. So I know that, right? And so now what I do is I've spent so much time now, instead of forgetting about those kids, thinking about them and trying to place myself in their shoes

And so now going to separate duty completely from it to go For my soul, it was not the right answer. So I know that, right? And so now what I do is I've spent so much time now, instead of forgetting about those kids, thinking about them and trying to place myself in their shoes

childhood reality where it's doesn't matter what your environment is if you're the children of a terrorist in your role as a servant to the father or maybe you wasn't in that i don't fucking know but your job is to just is to play you know and learn and absorb everything so it it makes me it forces me to to

childhood reality where it's doesn't matter what your environment is if you're the children of a terrorist in your role as a servant to the father or maybe you wasn't in that i don't fucking know but your job is to just is to play you know and learn and absorb everything so it it makes me it forces me to to

childhood reality where it's doesn't matter what your environment is if you're the children of a terrorist in your role as a servant to the father or maybe you wasn't in that i don't fucking know but your job is to just is to play you know and learn and absorb everything so it it makes me it forces me to to