Chris Fettes

Because I think that in those moments, in that critical moment, which is the veteran suicide, like critical moment that I think about a lot, is a lot simpler than what I think we all think it is. Because there's very specific thoughts going on in that moment, right? this guy, you know, this couple of guys or my team thinks I'm a shit bag or something.

Like I had another friend take his own life and he was at that outstation with me and he got sent home because he was, he came in a really bad alcoholic. He was a great operator before and then he turned into this and he started getting bounced around teams but, you know, they got it to where he could like survive through it and he got to retire and then right after he retired he took his own life.

Like I had another friend take his own life and he was at that outstation with me and he got sent home because he was, he came in a really bad alcoholic. He was a great operator before and then he turned into this and he started getting bounced around teams but, you know, they got it to where he could like survive through it and he got to retire and then right after he retired he took his own life.

Like I had another friend take his own life and he was at that outstation with me and he got sent home because he was, he came in a really bad alcoholic. He was a great operator before and then he turned into this and he started getting bounced around teams but, you know, they got it to where he could like survive through it and he got to retire and then right after he retired he took his own life.

And for him, it was a little different. It was like, dude, that whole bullshit of, like, if a guy's not performing for whatever the reason is in that moment, when you guys start to, when we start to jump on it and be like, that's a fucking, dude's a shitbag, and you just betray him after everything, all the good he was in those hard moments, like,

And for him, it was a little different. It was like, dude, that whole bullshit of, like, if a guy's not performing for whatever the reason is in that moment, when you guys start to, when we start to jump on it and be like, that's a fucking, dude's a shitbag, and you just betray him after everything, all the good he was in those hard moments, like,

And for him, it was a little different. It was like, dude, that whole bullshit of, like, if a guy's not performing for whatever the reason is in that moment, when you guys start to, when we start to jump on it and be like, that's a fucking, dude's a shitbag, and you just betray him after everything, all the good he was in those hard moments, like,

Like, that's the shit guys are thinking about, right? So there's a much better way to do that shit. And I even participated in some of it with a different guy we got rid of. It's like, we're hard motherfuckers, but we don't have to play that game when it gets to that. We can get rid of a dude for not performing or put him somewhere where he can get a little bit better, right?

Like, that's the shit guys are thinking about, right? So there's a much better way to do that shit. And I even participated in some of it with a different guy we got rid of. It's like, we're hard motherfuckers, but we don't have to play that game when it gets to that. We can get rid of a dude for not performing or put him somewhere where he can get a little bit better, right?

Like, that's the shit guys are thinking about, right? So there's a much better way to do that shit. And I even participated in some of it with a different guy we got rid of. It's like, we're hard motherfuckers, but we don't have to play that game when it gets to that. We can get rid of a dude for not performing or put him somewhere where he can get a little bit better, right?

Take a break or whatever it is without going, oh, he's gonna fucking jump on that and be like, shit, you know? Because once that label happens, that's a betrayal. And fast forward to later. that critical moment, those little memories, like those are what they're thinking about, what we're thinking about in my, what I think. So that was a rock bottom moment.

Take a break or whatever it is without going, oh, he's gonna fucking jump on that and be like, shit, you know? Because once that label happens, that's a betrayal. And fast forward to later. that critical moment, those little memories, like those are what they're thinking about, what we're thinking about in my, what I think. So that was a rock bottom moment.

Take a break or whatever it is without going, oh, he's gonna fucking jump on that and be like, shit, you know? Because once that label happens, that's a betrayal. And fast forward to later. that critical moment, those little memories, like those are what they're thinking about, what we're thinking about in my, what I think. So that was a rock bottom moment.

The only thing that made me fucking stop in that fucking moment and paddleboard back to my house was it was at nighttime. I knew my family was eating dinner and I started thinking about my son and the whole reason why I got out was for them.

The only thing that made me fucking stop in that fucking moment and paddleboard back to my house was it was at nighttime. I knew my family was eating dinner and I started thinking about my son and the whole reason why I got out was for them.

The only thing that made me fucking stop in that fucking moment and paddleboard back to my house was it was at nighttime. I knew my family was eating dinner and I started thinking about my son and the whole reason why I got out was for them.

And that brought me back a little bit to go like, fuck, even if I'm a shit father, like they still believe there's something in me, that thing that some people can feel or see like my wife did. She was still doing it in that moment, even though it wasn't me. She knew. They fucking know. There's something more, right? And there's a chance to get back to that before they give up.

And that brought me back a little bit to go like, fuck, even if I'm a shit father, like they still believe there's something in me, that thing that some people can feel or see like my wife did. She was still doing it in that moment, even though it wasn't me. She knew. They fucking know. There's something more, right? And there's a chance to get back to that before they give up.

And that brought me back a little bit to go like, fuck, even if I'm a shit father, like they still believe there's something in me, that thing that some people can feel or see like my wife did. She was still doing it in that moment, even though it wasn't me. She knew. They fucking know. There's something more, right? And there's a chance to get back to that before they give up.

I went back and a couple days later, the wife of my friend that took his life there just randomly called me. And she was like, how you doing? And I was like, fuck, that's not good.