Chris McCausland

It genuinely changed me more than anything else I've done.

And it affected me quite a lot.

I viewed myself and I viewed everything I did.

when I came out the other end of it.

It sounds really, really silly because it's just a TV show.

It was probably the continuous level of fear, the terror of doing this on live TV, how intensive it was, the relationship with Diane that you build up doing this thing together on the telly in front of millions of people.

It could be a disaster.

Can we get through it?

the connection it made with people, realizing, you know, I've always been very closed off and protective over my own personal feelings.

But I'm on the telly trying to overcome obstacles that everyone else can see.

And it connected with people in a way that I never expected.

It's connecting with people who are getting in touch, who are...

disabled in lots of ways or um or suffering from anxiety or lost someone in their family and suffering from grief and they get in touch and they tell you how it's connecting with them and you realize they can see what you're trying to overcome to do what you're doing you realize the power or the benefit of sharing your vulnerability in a way that i never would have done you know what i mean like i'd never dig it all put it in don't talk don't let anyone know

But you realize that people take value from sharing that and people seeing it.

So I think I was able to write the book from that perspective way more than I would have been able to.

And hopefully it's funny as well along the way, you know.

It is definitely very funny.

Yeah, yeah.

The first episode, Diane said to me that I'd gone gray, like literally the color had drained from my face.

She'd asked me a question, and I would, there'd be like 10 seconds passed, and I'd go, and she thought I was going to freeze on the telly.