Ciara McGeehan

And that I didn't really get to process that.

And

to even acknowledge it necessarily because straight into chemo and the main over overall thing is that you might die so it puts other things into perspective but there's only big things yeah it's only fair to to get to grieve them too and i will say that i think the book gave me an opportunity to do that right um

Cliona did such a good job of probably putting my voice down there like it's hard like reading my own story like I don't know it's my voice so whenever I read it I don't know if it sounds like my voice you know you don't have that ability to to necessarily know that yourself but the other people have said that I'm like okay that's that's amazing that's a testament to Cliona's writing ability um

But also I really feel for Glenna and if you read the acknowledgements at the back, like Glenna Godlover was like a therapist on the way through because we were talking about things and like talking about the highs and lows of my career, which are all things that

you know, I deal with them at the time, but like I was always very much next season, next race.

You just kept focusing.

So talking about the latter stage of my career, whenever it didn't go the way I wanted it to, breakdown of relationships and pulling out of Paris, that was really, really tough to verbalize and put down because I had actually barely processed it myself.

Like I had a pretty emotional interview with you whenever I came back.

And

And like that was, I was clearly still raw and processing it.

And it's not necessarily a very good trait that I have, but I just threw myself into the surgery and focused on that and focused on coming back and really parked that.

And suddenly opening up about it and actually having to put it on paper is, it's a really jarring thing.

It's really like, oh, okay, I have to, and I have to talk to Kleena about it.

And I have to verbalize it to Kleene in a succinct way whenever I haven't even got it like that in my head.

So Kleene was wonderful.

There was a couple of drafts where I'm saying the first few were probably a bit more raw about things.

And then I revisited them after a bit of time.

And I'm like, it's really amazing.

Like even in the journey of writing the book,