Ciara McGeehan

And then I revisited them after a bit of time.

And I'm like, it's really amazing.

Like even in the journey of writing the book,

the second draft of something or the third draft of something, you could see even myself processing it and my opinion of certain things changing or just my emotion towards it not being as raw.

And then in between all that is obviously my cancer journey, which was extremely raw.

And I think that's probably why it's so...

like moving for people and so emotional because actually I was I was coming back and telling Cliona in real time and she would find out things before my family necessarily we were talking about it and writing it down and because I was like well I'm waiting for my family to come together and I'm going to tell them this but like this this happened and then sometimes actually I wouldn't tell Cliona and then I'd be like oh this is what happened two weeks ago and I just wasn't ready to say um and putting putting all that down ah

Leclina is a fantastic writer and so, so kind.

Whenever I talked to Maliki, she was like, she's the best of us.

I think I made a very lovely choice in the person that helped me write my book.

But yeah, the waves off it all.

And I'm grateful to the book for probably helping me process some of those things about the end of my career.

Because it's one of the things that like, it's probably a strange thing that

People are like, oh, it's strange for Tommy to have said this specific thing whenever you're faced with dying, possibly dying of cancer.

Tommy really, really felt sad that I didn't get to have the retirement from my career that he felt I deserved.

Yeah, definitely.

It's I've been so lucky with the partner that I've had beside me for so many years.

And it was funny.

And I wish that it was a case that I could race nationals.

I didn't envision like going through that.