Ciarán O'Driscoll

and don't as far as you all can talk and everywhere really like i had a lot of time at the time now i would have i would have making time like today i wouldn't i wouldn't have that time today like you know yeah a life beyond your wildest dreams i love being sober brenda i love being clean and sober like you know what age you know i'm 48

I was 23 years of Christmas.

I love Christmas, and I buried my mother on Christmas Eve, 12 months ago.

I remember going out to the funeral, out to the graveyard, and we were passing Dunstores, and they were all coming out with their shopping, and people probably coming up from Australia, and they were all happy, and I was following the horse, which was a sad time.

My brother's was a very sad time, but I'd be strong enough

I would have been always deep.

I wouldn't tell no one.

I would let no one in.

My mother used to always ask me, one of my neighbours of mine, a very good friend of mine when he passed away, like, and how are you?

And I get up and I walk out.

I couldn't deal with it.

I couldn't talk.

I couldn't kind of express myself.

There was a neighbour next door to me, a very special woman, very good to me, never judged me.

right next door um uh very very good to me like even when i was a kid i still see her today she come she came back from my mom's anniversary mass and very very good lady to me like you know very very good family you know i think of all these kind of people and there was people gave me good breaks

There's one guy in Australia.

He's in Australia now.

When I came out of prison, he always gave me a start.

And I have one or two close friends as well who would be in contact with who are strong.

They probably would have been closer to my brothers than me.