Clark Fredericks

And it led to us being on his bed and sweating and taking our clothes off. And before you know it, he's got me in a bear hug. And I'm crying and screaming. And this piece of garbage whispers in my ear. He's got me like where I can't move and whispers in my ear just another minute, you know, so that he can finish his deed. Yeah. And he had a coon dog. Coon dogs have a long, drawn-out howl.

And it led to us being on his bed and sweating and taking our clothes off. And before you know it, he's got me in a bear hug. And I'm crying and screaming. And this piece of garbage whispers in my ear. He's got me like where I can't move and whispers in my ear just another minute, you know, so that he can finish his deed. Yeah. And he had a coon dog. Coon dogs have a long, drawn-out howl.

And his dog was howling. He had a, you know, a back room. And the dog was just going nuts because of my screams and cries. And we got done, you know, cleaned me up like a great guy and sat me down at his kitchen table, got me another beer, you know, like, you know, like we're just two lovers who just had a nice romantic tryst or something and having a beer afterwards. And, uh,

And his dog was howling. He had a, you know, a back room. And the dog was just going nuts because of my screams and cries. And we got done, you know, cleaned me up like a great guy and sat me down at his kitchen table, got me another beer, you know, like, you know, like we're just two lovers who just had a nice romantic tryst or something and having a beer afterwards. And, uh,

He brought his dog in who's still howling and brought it right in front of me and said, I want to show you what will happen to you if you open up your mouth about what just occurred. And he began beating his dog and beating his dog and beating his dog. And I'm screaming and I'm crying and I'm begging him, please stop, Dennis, please, please, please, please, please stop.

He brought his dog in who's still howling and brought it right in front of me and said, I want to show you what will happen to you if you open up your mouth about what just occurred. And he began beating his dog and beating his dog and beating his dog. And I'm screaming and I'm crying and I'm begging him, please stop, Dennis, please, please, please, please, please stop.

And he beat the dog and the dog lay at a heap at my feet. And he goes, you will not talk about what just happened or that will happen to you. And I mean, so what am I supposed to do after that? Like go running home to my parents and open up my mouth about what just happened? So he dropped me off down at the, uh, dam area with my bike.

And he beat the dog and the dog lay at a heap at my feet. And he goes, you will not talk about what just happened or that will happen to you. And I mean, so what am I supposed to do after that? Like go running home to my parents and open up my mouth about what just happened? So he dropped me off down at the, uh, dam area with my bike.

And I, uh, I took my bike and I ran down the river and I ditched my bike in the weeds and I just stood by the river and I was like rocking and hugging myself. And, uh, And crying a little. And my mind said, we are never going to talk about this. Talking about it is reliving it. And we are definitely not going to relive it. And that really like was the worst. Our minds try to protect us.

And I, uh, I took my bike and I ran down the river and I ditched my bike in the weeds and I just stood by the river and I was like rocking and hugging myself. And, uh, And crying a little. And my mind said, we are never going to talk about this. Talking about it is reliving it. And we are definitely not going to relive it. And that really like was the worst. Our minds try to protect us.

And a lot of times they do the complete opposite of what we need. Like I needed to, I needed to talk about it instantly. And instead I clammed up. And I had gotten that Christmas after that summer, I got a dirt bike and I began riding dirt bikes at our lake community. There was a track behind our house and I avoided the dam area.

And a lot of times they do the complete opposite of what we need. Like I needed to, I needed to talk about it instantly. And instead I clammed up. And I had gotten that Christmas after that summer, I got a dirt bike and I began riding dirt bikes at our lake community. There was a track behind our house and I avoided the dam area.

Like I just started riding dirt bikes with older kids at the lake and not going back to the dam area anymore. Yeah. And that dirt bike became, you know, like my savior, you know, to get me away.

Like I just started riding dirt bikes with older kids at the lake and not going back to the dam area anymore. Yeah. And that dirt bike became, you know, like my savior, you know, to get me away.

Is it... Yeah, everything changed after, you know... I mean, somehow at 11, with the blowjob, I was able to just disconnect from that. But the... changed everything. It changed... I had been an altar boy in the Episcopal Church. Boom, I'm done with God. You know, like, back then, you know, the old crusty ministers, you know, like... You do good and good things will happen to you.

Is it... Yeah, everything changed after, you know... I mean, somehow at 11, with the blowjob, I was able to just disconnect from that. But the... changed everything. It changed... I had been an altar boy in the Episcopal Church. Boom, I'm done with God. You know, like, back then, you know, the old crusty ministers, you know, like... You do good and good things will happen to you.

You step out of line and you incur God's wrath, you know, during his sermons. And like, what the F could I have done to incur God's wrath for this to have happened to me? Fuck that.

You step out of line and you incur God's wrath, you know, during his sermons. And like, what the F could I have done to incur God's wrath for this to have happened to me? Fuck that.

Yeah. And like, like, you know. I didn't learn a lot later on that we have free will and free will you can use for good or for evil. It's not like God was allowing this to happen. We want God to be the superhero who's going to save the train from going off the tracks or the boat from capsizing or the Boy Scout from getting...

Yeah. And like, like, you know. I didn't learn a lot later on that we have free will and free will you can use for good or for evil. It's not like God was allowing this to happen. We want God to be the superhero who's going to save the train from going off the tracks or the boat from capsizing or the Boy Scout from getting...