Clark Fredericks

genuinely i mean could my life you know had i mustered up the strength to tell my father when he asked me those couple times like my life would have taken you know it would have taken a different trajectory i would have i would think but you know then you also have to

you also have to think I had to go through everything I went to.

To have a story, to have a mission.

So I can tell people who want to go do what I did.

Like there's very few of us that have gone and done that.

And you're going to end up in prison with the same trauma you were trying to get rid of.

And you're going to have that trauma.

You're just going to be someone else.

In hell.

Yeah.

can't stress that enough how hellish prison is it's not where you i i actually used it to heal but it's i i am the like one minuscule thing grain of sand and a beach that does that it's not the place you want to go heal so just start healing now right and then that desire to kill is gonna like dissipate so i get the surgery i end up in the county jail the same jail he worked at

And they put me in a suicide cell.

And there's a camera on me.

The lights are on 24-7.

No mattress.

Don't get anything.

You're on a metal thing.

And... And I thought these guys were going to give me the beating of a lifetime.

You know, you got that blue wall.

And...