Clark Fredericks

They didn't want something happening on their watch.

It would look really, really iffy.

And then I had a cast on my hand and they wouldn't let me into general population, but they put me into an isolation cell by myself.

So then I was in there for another three weeks and then finally released the general population.

And I was trying in those first two months to pray.

And every time I would close my eyes, I'd either see images of the rape, other sexual acts, I would see the murder, and I'd have to just shake my head and abandon attempts at prayer.

But when I got into general population, I saw my mother for a visit.

And my mother, as she waited in line outside, saw her minister came out of the jail.

He'd been in to see somebody's child.

And he went up to her, gave her a hug, and then he grabbed her by the shoulders.

And he goes, Joan, I want you and your son to pray on the number five as in a five-year sentence.

And she came in and she started telling me this.

And I'm just like, I'm like, mom.

I'm like, you got to pick a number that's more realistic.

A five is not going to happen.

You know, like in my head, I'm like, man, if I could get a 20, that'd be great.

You know, like I killed a law enforcement officer and I'm in the jail where he worked.

Like it is done.

You want to talk about, people talk about how bad their life is.

I mean, does it get much worse than that?