Clark Fredericks

But.

For 30 years, Lisa from college has been inside that skull just scratching, scratching, scratching.

Back then with no cell phone, she used to write me love letters.

And I held on to all of them for those 30 years.

And whenever I would feel like her fading from my memory or feeling distant, I would get out her letters and read them and feel like that bond like instantly connected again.

And I would tell my mother that I really screwed up by letting her get away.

You know, I had so many times in my mind where I was gonna ride in on my horse and scoop her up and save her.

And then I'd think, but you got the mob that wants to kill you.

Like, you can't bring her into this.

I'm gonna ride on my white horse as the knight in shining armor, scoop her up,

But you're doing heroin and abusing drugs around the clock.

You can't bring her into this.

And I would talk myself out of it.

And I said driving home that night, it's not fair to get into a relationship with someone when I'm still connected to Lisa.

I've got to reach out to Lisa.

I have to apologize to her so I can move on.

And I drafted a message.

And this love story is all in this book too.

And I erased it.

And then I'm like, I rewrote it.