Cody Brown

So I was distant from some of my children, but not from all of them.

I have a very close relationship with three of my daughters and a working relationship with four others and then a relationship I'm working on with others.

And so I was already in that space where I was going through a process of apologizing to my ex-wives for my part in the breakup.

And the same was going off-camera with just trying to be in touch with my children and try and work that stuff out.

So it was a hard experience with the DS because from a military perspective—

I felt like if you're partly responsible, then you're wholly responsible.

So I felt like I owned way more than should have belonged there.

But in reality, whether fair or unfair, I've always been working on the relationship with my children one way or another.

Being on Special Forces hasn't, per se, improved that relationship.

Coming home from Special Forces, Special Forces was so humiliating that when I came home, I felt humble.

Very, very humble.

And so I was...

You know, that sweetness in life, I'm much more engaging with my children.

I'm reaching out to my children more often, that kind of thing.

But it doesn't always come from an experience like this.

of a breakup in a family.

And it wasn't just a divorce is a breakup of a family.

It was the whole family breaks up.

So working those things out is something that's been on my mind before and after special forces, special forces just gave me an element of humility.

I just came home going just so humbled by the experience.