Cole

Yeah, totally.

It's like everything she's saying, it's very accurate.

The moments where I would get either like a text or a phone call from my ex-partner, not that it was anything to hide from Leah, but I guess I didn't, I saw it as I didn't want it to interfere between our relationship.

Because it was always so minimal.

It was always something to do with our child over like such like mundane things that like now I can I can look back and understand that like I would look at my phone and see a text message or a missed call, but I wouldn't address it right then and there.

I wouldn't really include her in that part of my life.

I can say, I guess.

So that's why I can understand why she would feel so left out or out of the loop or like I'm trying to hide or kind of be like just hiding things from her.

Mainly because my ex-partner, they're a different person.

And I didn't want that part of my past life to show up in something so great and so healthy and in this relationship with Leah.

I guess back then, like a year and a bit ago,

I didn't really admit the reality of the type of relationship that I had with my ex.

Which was?

It was very abusive, like emotionally and mentally.

So I learned, I mean, I've learned recently through a lot of counseling in the past couple of months.

Like I would go right to my head and deal with or I would try to deal with a lot of things without really like addressing how it was making either one of us feel, me or Leah.

And like I think like the fears and and like the trauma from the abuse, it was enough for me to pretend like everything was all good on that side.

And I didn't want it to show up in the relationship with Leah.

So I would, I would talk it down a lot though.

Like I would say, Oh, my ex partner, like, it's all good.