Coleman Ruiz

One of the things I absolutely hate, but I do every day, which is wait 90 minutes to drink coffee.

Oh, it's the worst.

I cannot tell you how much of a difference that's made in my energy throughout the day.

And the drinking was similar.

You know, I like, look, I'm just going to drop it for a couple of weeks.

And then suddenly my sleep's better.

My fitness is better.

You know, so, you know, we all, even my friend, you know, you chat about stuff.

Oh, what are you doing at this age?

You know, I'm approaching 50.

That helps you stop drinking.

Everything else, like all the other recommendations come second, at least for me.

I was just lucky.

So, yeah.

So my point there is just the respect I have for people who work through stuff like that.

And I was gonna say, the reason I referenced the drinking is because I started reading a lot about the 12 steps AA, I've never been to AA meeting, but the Simpson, the PTSD and the 12 steps, I'm like, oh my God, this is me.

I need to go through these steps in my own way, not for drinking.

But for whatever this low-grade, the way I've described it as, you know, the Buddhists obviously call it dukkha, it's unsatisfactoriness, this low-grade irritation that I carry around every day, the one amazing thing that that couple of months did for me and the way I describe it visually is if someone cut me from neck to belly and filleted open my chest,

and took a propane torch and scorched me from the inside and then put me back together and said, start over.

That's how it felt.