Coleman Ruiz

That's literally how it felt.

I mean, I could not believe, Andrew, and you can obviously, you know, Dr. Conti can articulate this better.

I couldn't believe how emotional pain could be so physically painful.

that whole experience, again, the shocking part was the shocking part.

I just, I just didn't think it was real.

And so then when it was, and I'm like, how many fucking things do I have to deal with?

You know?

And I realized everybody deals with a lot of stuff and, um, it was challenging.

And then slowly, you know, it got better and better.

And, um,

Guys like, you know, friends, very close friends.

A very, very small, tight group.

Man, what people do when you finally tell them and you think, oh, this guy's going to, he's never going to talk to me again.

They do the opposite.

They rally immediately for you, you know?

And then guys that aren't in your inner circle necessarily helping directly, and they're in the next circle.

Because now it's very weird.

It's back to like the feeling thing.

I can not 100% of the time, but a lot of guys in my community, if I speak to them and they're in a bad spot, I can detect it within five seconds.

Just the tonal and kind of like the tempo changes.