Colman Noctor

And again, from the point of view of if it wasn't the two people that were having the conversation, me and that other person, this would never have come to be.

Do you know what I mean?

It was the fact that somebody like I would never have gone looking for it.

It was certainly not something that I had featured on my radar back then.

I had the ah moment really probably in that assessment.

The second one.

My daughter, yeah.

And I could see maybe then how I had channeled it into all of these things and how the things that I struggled with were the things that made sense to it.

So...

For me, like Christmas time, summer holidays, anything where there's no tasks to go to, do the next to the next to the next to the next, I really struggle.

Like I feel so uncomfortable in my body.

I feel my brain is, I would use the word fizzing.

Like it feels like it's a thing.

And I need something to settle the fizz.

So if I got engrossed in it,

a project or something like that and I was stuck into it, then everything just settles down.

So the itch goes away when you're busy.

But when you're not busy and when you're forced to not be busy, like in a situation where it's Christmas or people say, go relax, go in there and relax.

Like sending me into a room on my own

for an hour or two would be torturous to me.