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So like, for example, my parents would go through our music, like our song, and go through like the song lyrics, decide which content they wanted us listening to.

And like, even beyond swear words, like they were worried about like subversive ideas, stuff like that.

So that was...

and then I ended up actually going to serve a mission.

And so a Mormon mission, what that is, once you reach a certain age,

What you do is you go out and you basically try and convert people to Mormonism in a very structured sort of way.

They send out the missionaries and all that.

While it is voluntary, it's kind of the only choice you have.

If you want to be a good Mormon, that is what you need to do.

At least as a Mormon man, that was an expectation.

I ended up serving a mission at least nine months of one.

I came home because I got Lyme disease.

I think just my overall experience with that is actually the first thing that kind of made me start doubting Mormonism.

I kind of decided I didn't think what they were saying was the truth, and I didn't believe that the church was actually like God's hand in our life now.

It just seemed like it was an organization, and it seemed like they were even kind of corrupt and doing a lot of bad stuff.

That causes a full faith crisis is what I would call it.

When your entire worldview and just everything, your whole outlook was based on this,

very structured belief system, you try and leave that belief system or try and kind of take that framework out of it, you're gone.

It's like, what do I believe about anything?

What happens when I die?