Corinne Vien

As someone who is freshly out of postpartum depression and anxiety, I also have to say I found this part extremely relatable because that was totally me with my baby. Who held him? How they held him? What if he overheated when they held him? What if they breathed too closely to him? What if I missed a hunger cue? What if he suddenly stopped breathing in their arms? Just a million worries.

As someone who is freshly out of postpartum depression and anxiety, I also have to say I found this part extremely relatable because that was totally me with my baby. Who held him? How they held him? What if he overheated when they held him? What if they breathed too closely to him? What if I missed a hunger cue? What if he suddenly stopped breathing in their arms? Just a million worries.

And I mean, it was absolutely crushing. It still feels crushing thinking about it. And... The only way that I could get through those beginning weeks and beginning months was to be extremely controlling about everything. Because honestly, I felt like I'd lost all control. I was desperately searching for some predictability and security. So I get it.

And I mean, it was absolutely crushing. It still feels crushing thinking about it. And... The only way that I could get through those beginning weeks and beginning months was to be extremely controlling about everything. Because honestly, I felt like I'd lost all control. I was desperately searching for some predictability and security. So I get it.

But really, when I look back on it, it was more about helping me, not really the child that I was caring for. So perhaps Jake would have benefited from having some other helping hands around, even if they did things slightly differently.

But really, when I look back on it, it was more about helping me, not really the child that I was caring for. So perhaps Jake would have benefited from having some other helping hands around, even if they did things slightly differently.

While many family members pulled back to avoid any further conflict, Jake's half-brother Max did not shy away from trying to help, and it did contribute to further conflict. Jake remembers hearing his wife and Max get into more than one screaming match, all while Jake is just helplessly paralyzed listening to the arguments from inside of the same home.

While many family members pulled back to avoid any further conflict, Jake's half-brother Max did not shy away from trying to help, and it did contribute to further conflict. Jake remembers hearing his wife and Max get into more than one screaming match, all while Jake is just helplessly paralyzed listening to the arguments from inside of the same home.

Jake actually remembers hearing a fistfight between the two of them, a fight that resulted in Max's arrest.

Jake actually remembers hearing a fistfight between the two of them, a fight that resulted in Max's arrest.

While his wife and father were the primary caretakers, Jake's dad, Doran, still worked part-time as a delivery driver. Doran made sure to schedule his shifts around the at-home care schedule that Jake's wife had created, a schedule that was pretty rigid, and Doran did find it pretty difficult to manage both schedules.

While his wife and father were the primary caretakers, Jake's dad, Doran, still worked part-time as a delivery driver. Doran made sure to schedule his shifts around the at-home care schedule that Jake's wife had created, a schedule that was pretty rigid, and Doran did find it pretty difficult to manage both schedules.

On Chinese New Year, Doran attended a staff party at the restaurant where he worked, the restaurant that he drove delivery for. They had set out a mouth-watering spread, and Doran was really excited to have a chance to relax a bit, to socialize, to eat some free food. But he wasn't supposed to stay long because he had a 12-hour shift scheduled right after this to care for Jake.

On Chinese New Year, Doran attended a staff party at the restaurant where he worked, the restaurant that he drove delivery for. They had set out a mouth-watering spread, and Doran was really excited to have a chance to relax a bit, to socialize, to eat some free food. But he wasn't supposed to stay long because he had a 12-hour shift scheduled right after this to care for Jake.

So the voice that said, why did you do this? Do you remember whose voice it was?

So the voice that said, why did you do this? Do you remember whose voice it was?

This feels like a plot of a thriller. Man trapped in his body overhears a crime and must piece together what happened. Only this isn't a Stephen King novel. This is Jake's reality. He just overheard an assault and attempted murder by the sounds of it. But who pushed who? All Jake can do is lay there and wait for the next clue. Thank you for listening to Blink.

This feels like a plot of a thriller. Man trapped in his body overhears a crime and must piece together what happened. Only this isn't a Stephen King novel. This is Jake's reality. He just overheard an assault and attempted murder by the sounds of it. But who pushed who? All Jake can do is lay there and wait for the next clue. Thank you for listening to Blink.

This podcast is hosted and produced by me, Corinne Vien, alongside my co-creator and survivor, Jake Handel. Our original music is composed by the brilliant and talented Michael Marguet. We're so grateful for your support. If you enjoyed this episode, please consider rating, reviewing, and sharing this story with others.

This podcast is hosted and produced by me, Corinne Vien, alongside my co-creator and survivor, Jake Handel. Our original music is composed by the brilliant and talented Michael Marguet. We're so grateful for your support. If you enjoyed this episode, please consider rating, reviewing, and sharing this story with others.