Corley Spell

And I think whenever you have to contemplate your mortality, like your actual death, you know, when you get hit by a bus or something, you don't really think about it.

But when you have to sit there through the sickness and think through it,

I think that's when your roots really, really go down in your faith because you have to look at it and say, I'm okay.

I am fully surrendered with whatever you have for me, Lord.

And I had to do that.

And actually, it was the peace that they talk about, right, that just surpasses all understanding.

That's what was over my mind and my body in that time because I was fully surrendered.

I was like, take me home.

Because I really went from, I'm not going to die, I feel like I'm dying, to I kind of want to die because I'm in so much pain.

It was bad.

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You know, looking back, I think

Before, I think I had a fear of death, which we shouldn't, right?

But I think I was just an immature believer at that point.

And now I look at it as I'm just getting closer to eternity.

And so, yes, it's very sad.

All the things you have to leave behind that they still have to go, right?

They're in the waiting room at that point, right?